Guilt

I'm going to make every effort to be early from now on.
I don't want to disappoint people being late all the time.
Its really not worth it.
Its quite a bad habit that will be pretty hard to change but I'll try.
For myself, for honeybee, for everyone, for God.

As a reminder, yesterday was day 1.

I'm now very worn out.
Yesterday was such a long day.
I had to study and go for worship practice which ended so late.

I've to go for my violin lesson which starts at 9am.
Then I've to continue studying and then go to honeybee's church office at 2pm.
After which I've to rush home cause Q is coming over to my house.
Q is probably ending at 10+pm.

I've mid-year papers from Monday to Thursday!
Geog, Econs, Physics, Math.
I'm quite prepared for Econs.
I'm thinking how much of Geog I should study.
Okay I just thought about it.
I'm going to do Physics and Maths today.
Then I'll go all out for Geog tomorrow.

I feel pretty lost.
I can't wait for the examinations to be over.
I want to excel.
Theres once again a lot of pressure on me as a student.
Teachers and friends are constantly expecting me to get an A and no less.
Its pretty ridiculous.
But I guess thats what drives me to do well.